sweetpie65
01-11-2008, 11:07 PM
I`ve been depress since highschool because the kids weren`t nice to me.I`m 22 and I have suicidal thoughts.Can I overlook my suicidal thoughts if I been having it for years and I haven`t tried to kill myself? I`m a christian so i`m afriad to go to hell.I stay home alot ;I became anti-social because of my highschool .I don`t have any friends.I basically don`t have a life.I usually get pannic attacks when I have to go to school or when I have to go outside.I`m too scared to get a job because I don`t know how i`ll be treated.I`m angry all the time because of the bad things people did to me .I`m even mad at my parents.I never saw a doctor about this.Could it be a Bi-polar disorder?I check out the site and I was shook to see that I have the symptoms of GAD.They also said that it can be mistaken for things like somatization disorder and I would have to see a doc about this.I thought I was crazy when I experience those symptoms.My mom does know that I have suicidal thoughts,but my dad isn`t in my life to know.All my mom said was''go to chruch,pray to God,you should know better,you will go to hell'' she also thinks I say it to hurt her.Last year she actually told me to'' kill yourself then''.My mom didn`t allow me to see a therapist when I was in highschool because she`s a christian.Up untill last year I tried to pray away my problem.It didn`t work so I decided to think that therapist aren`t bad.