How to handle my mental problems.?

[paracelsus666x]

Ok, so I have a few mental problems. First let me say I am completly serious about this. I am very religious and I hear voices, two of them both male. Sometimes I hear others but they are not as dominant. I burn myself frequently, the worse one was a very hot iron file pushed above my heart, and I have got a infecftion a couple of times. Other than burn I cut, self tattoo and hit myself. The hitting is more like a twitch and way to relief presasure, the other things feel to be more necessary to exist. Now for personality breakdown. I am a very bland, very boring person. I have no need to socialise with others and hate the idea of it. I do have a family and shelter them from this. I shake a lot, nerve problems i guess, I was prescribed xanex once but I felt like I could kill and not care so i stopped. I am into dark stuff, blood dirt demons etc. My problems are getting harder to cope with, more extremes seem necesary to me, any sugestions for my mental state.

[Victoria O]

http://dailystrength.org/support/Mental_Health_Addiction/Self-Injury/This may help please check it out

[lil ol me]

go to someone to help you! this is a serious problem seek out medical help.

[punkbun03]

seriously, check into a hospital. i'm not being mean. you really need professional help. nobody can do that online with one quick answer. you say that you are sheltering your family, but i'm sure they know something is up. if it gets much worse you may end up violent. as for religion, it has nothing to do with this. you can pray if it calms you but i'm sure god would want you to get help.

[Faith4jesus]

I too am very religious. I'm a strong believing Christian. But as a teen I use to do self harm too. Just as bad as your burning yourself I would do some horrible things to myself & I'm still paying the price today for it. I use to say it would "get the bad out" if you know what I mean. But when I got married at just 18 (why anyone would have wanted me as messed up as I was) I knew I had to stop and let me tell you it was HARD! I came to realize though that if I hurt myself I'd also hurt my husband. One night I couldn't sleep and I was doing one of the things I'd do so "self harm" myself but then I knew my husband would hurt too if he saw me hurt. So I stopped. I didn't want to hurt him. After 13yrs of marriage though the urge to hurt myself has come bad a good bit of time. But as a Christian I knew that God wouldn't like this. It is the same with you. First off I want you to know that God loves you. He created you and when you were deep inside your mom He knew your name and oh how He loved you. No one could see you or touch you but He did. He still does too! When you hurt God hurts. When you look into dark things and blood and demons you are hurting God. I too have been into that stuff. I still am a horror movie freak but I'd rather be near God than demons for sure! First off you need to put yourself into God's word daily!!! Listen to a Christian radio station to keep you standing on God's love and word. The next time you think of burning or hurting yourself stop and pray. Pray hard! Scream and yell at God and tell Him how much you hurt!!! Go into the bathroom and get into a warm bath. As the warm water surrounds you think of God's love. I want you to let out all that pain to God. Tell him loud and clear how much you hurt and how you hate what is going on. If you have to slap the water or punch it to get out your pain! After you do this you'll feel so much better and best of all you wouldn't have hurt yourself one single bit! I use to force myself to do this daily during my deep depression after my 3rd child. I at times dreaded getting to the bath tub knowing all the pain I'd feel but it would slowly creep out of me and I'd feel like a new person. You are not alone. God loves you and you just need to draw close to Him. He is there waiting with open arms. Remember God doesn't move away you are the one who has but is there with you all the time. Hugs