help and you save
07-15-2007, 10:36 PM
I think its depression bugging me really hard, so I took out my depression on animals. I wish I never did that cause now my pet died. so then I get completely bored and depressed and I'm a guy, I also get horny, needy for "you know what". but instead of finding a girlfriend, I would just do it without a consent.I dont get it why I become so violent. what happened to me? and there is no one to help me. people said "I will help you" but no one understands me, no on knows what is happening inside my mind. and no one knows how to help. I talked to friends, but it didnt helped. I need a very professional and advanced help. I have a councellor, but she went on a vacation now. I wonder how long can I hold on. some people cut if depressed, do self harm. but not me. I would harm others.I even hurt friends. I faked suicide and I wanted to see their reaction and enjoy in it, but it didnt turned out, like I expected.RnTraumaNurse, I asked so many times for medications and they all said "you are fine without them".